that title reminds me so much of livelavalive
he always does little slashy things in his info on videos.
finally my life is good.
...actually pretty perfect.
i've been really happy lately
i've been more outgoing,
and been smiling a lot.
there's only one thing that would make
everything exactly how i want it to be
and that's this one boy. all of my friends
tell me to just 'go for it' but i can't. i'm really shy
around guys and i'm almost positive he likes
someone else. this sucks so bad. you have no idea.
if i could just fix that, i'd feel like i was living my lfie
exactly how iv'e always wanted to, for the first time in a long time.
~oh and that rachel's challenge program came to my school
it was about rachel scott, the first girl killed in columbine.
it inspired me to keep a journal. so, seeing as i don't keep up with
livejournal too much, i figured i'd give an actual journal a try.
i love it so much. it helps me get everything off of my chest and just
to vent about everything. it helps me calm down when i'm angry.
i know it sounds stupid, but it really does help me.
but anyways, today i election day. obama vs. mccain.
oh how i hope mccain wins. i really don't like obama
no, i'm not racist, i just really hate his views.
i'm sick of being called racist because i don't like obama
that's not the reason why, don't judge me like that,
i'm not racist whatsoever, so mind your own business.
but yeah, i'm almost positive that obama is going to win,
and it makes me scared. plus, tomorrow in school all i'll
be hearing from dallas in german class is 'HAHA SAM OBAMA WIN'
ughhhhhhhh. what ever. today i have no school, because of election day,
so i'm going to be hanging out with jessie, shelby, and allison basically all day.
i wish i did my homework last night, though.
asking me why we aren't friends anymore
because i don't even know the answer,
and honestly, i could care less.
yeah it's harsh, but it's the truth.
right now in my life, i couldn't be happier.
and don't thik it's all my fault:
i smile in the halls and i get ignored
i've sent texts that never get responses
i've given up and i dont' care
i have the best friends in the world
and it doesn't include her, so stop asking.
i'm starting to think that i was born into this world to be apart of something at all times.
there can't be a time when i am not in the middle of some drama going around.
i haven't been really happy for months, and it's getting close to a year now.
it's crazy. i fight with someone, it gets better, then someting esle happens.
i just wish everyone would leave me alone and just let me live.
there is no turning back.
if you wanted to ever fix this,
sorry, it's not happening
this has gone too far.
here's to gymnastics when we were three.
here's to being your only friend when you moved here.
here's to art in 8th grade and letting you sit at our table whenyou had no one else to sit with.
here's to the summer days we hung out.
here's to showing you 'gingie'
here's to the sims 2.
here's to your brithday party.
here's to all the memories that will be forever forgotten.
here's to you.
here's to me.
here's to high school.
i feel like you try to find things that get me annoyed,
almost like you want to make it completely my fault that we aren't close anymore
allowing you to say i get mad over everything.
i hate it when people diss my favorite band,
i don't know why, i just do.
i know i get defensive, but don't call me out on it,
it gets me really annoyed.
so, please, just stop it.
trying this out.
not sure how much i'll post on here,
but what the hell, i thought i'd finally make one.